Hello there! Did ya miss me? Seems that I always come back when things take a turn to the dark side. Last post. Was last August and since then I have been doing pretty good on the anxiety front. Last weekend I even took the family out for a drive to Julian (little old town in the mountains here). Past few years that was unheard of.
Well yesterday for whatever reason anxiety decided to pay me a visit and it is here again this morning. I’m thinking that maybe it’s the weather and time of year. Past few years sprint is when it has reared up and the past few days I’ve been getting that feeling that it feels like before. With the weather warming up and all seems like the cycle is about to start again. I will say its not as bad as in the past, maybe each year it comes back a little weaker than before? Maybe in a few years ill be done with it 🙂
Could also,be a number of other things like cashflow worries or our local image competition next week. Who knows but I do have tools now to battle it. Been doing my walks again I the mornings, going to start up meditation again. I’m on the Zoloft still and have lorezapam as a back up. I’m still getting things done, just taking breaks often.
On another front the muscle fatigue and exhaustion has not gone away and at times has gotten worse so I finally made another trip to the doctors which lead to another trip to the vampires for a round of blood tests. Got the results yesterday and was not good news.
First of all I kind of expected this one. Cholesterol is back through the roof. My eating habits seemed to deteriorate as I was feeling better, Estradas Mexican food had become my friend again having bean and cheese and breakfast burritos quite often. Also muffins from sprouts and other goodies have crept in. So it’s back on a stricter diet to get the levels back down agin or its back to the statins which I would like to avoid.
The other news was that my ANA test was high again. If you recall I had a high test last year followed by a normal one 30 days later. The ANA test shows anti bodies in your system related to auto immune disorders, where your body’s defenses are attacking your own body. This can be anything from arthritis to lupas or a 100 or types. So since its another positive and with the symptoms it’s off to a specialist once I get the referral. I’m ok with it, just really would like a definitive answer and treatment for a change.
Time to drop off the kid at school and do my morning walk. I’ll try keeping you up to date as best I can 🙂